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Violet, United Kingdom.
Who am I? I can only hope that one day I will be able to answer this. Until then I am trying; I'm always trying.
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I’m Home. 

Sorry I abandoned this tumblr. I was found out. So I have a slightly different name, and should be updating again from now on.

Love, Violet

xx

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Not Okay 

I can honestly say that I have no one I can truly talk to about my illness, my thoughts and how each day I have to somehow struggle through. I know I sound so dramatic, but every day is a battle for me. If I really had a choice in whether to live or die, I would not be here. Unfortunatly I don’t have a choice because I have my family to think about. 

Since breaking up with the only person in the world who knew absoloutly everything about me, I’ve never felt so alone and sad. It’s not because I’ve lost a lover, but because I’ve lost my best friend. I think it was time to move on, but I never wanted to lose the one person who understood me most. I have two close friends that are usually there for me, but neither of them understand my problems. I’m not even sure they know if or why I take medication. I wish nobody had to feel like this and I wish I could be okay for once.

One of those moments 

This is one of those moments where I think ‘I’d be better off dead.’ If only it were that easy.

I’m always trying 

I feel like I’m always trying so hard but it never seems enough and I get nothing back. I feel worthless, what is the point anymore?

I’m So Ugly 

I wish I could change, but I’m stuck in a rut.

I’m healing. 

Things are looking up.

-fucklogic:

madimunchkin:

(via lovelykid, -amongthepines)

I miss you. 

I said that I wouldn’t take you back, if you decided that we should still be together, but here I am thinking about what it would be like if I did. I was fine without you for awhile but now I think I miss you. I miss what we used to be, but what I miss more is our friendship. I miss having someone who I could rely on and completely trust. I can’t tell my best friends absolutely everything because you were my truest friend, and they’ll never understand me like you did.

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Bonfire night 

and I’m home alone doing nothing.